A Farewell to Mars (Free Book)

A Farewell to Mars (Free Book)


Brian Zahnd. A Farewell to Mars. Kindle Edition. June 2014. https://www.amazon.com/Farewell-Mars-Evangelical-Pastors-Biblical-ebook/dp/B00I65455C?ie=UTF8&tag=christianbooksfree-20

Hey all! Yet another book for free from Brian Zahnd for Kindle.
The topic of this one hitting home, as a Christian living in America. It is without a shadow of a doubt that this countries rulers, and people as a whole, are fixated on violence; and the people of God are sucked into the culture’s perception of justified violence.  War is taught as necessary, and violent actions as natural to humanity and just.

If I am to be honest, I too, feel inclined to identify as falling into the group that is too easily persuaded that violence is necessary at times. But is that consistent theology? Is violence on any level what we are called to do?

Join me in the quest to find the answer to this question. Download this book for FREE, and let it be just the beginning of a journey to discovering a biblical stance on the matter.

Go download it, read it, and let’s talk about it together!

My Anthem. My Heartcry. My Battlecry.

As an undergraduate I struggled to keep a 3.0. For some that would be a miracle, since they do not enjoy school and or have a difficult time with it. But for someone who aspires to be a professor and attend a top notch university, that is almost like academic suicide.
I made a few poor decisions and made a habit of pushing myself too hard with a ton of things on my plate. Massive amounts of stress, lack of sleep and sometimes a day or to without eating because I couldn’t spare the 3 hours a day one spends eating; which as you can imagine, led to emotional drain and panic/anxiety attacks almost weekly.

Many friends and professors had no idea what was going on only that I seemed different. I just wasn’t turning in assignments. I wasn’t spending time with friends. I am pretty sure I cried myself to sleep a couple times, for a degree I was not sure I even wanted anymore; even as I walked across the stage at graduation a new anxiety gripped me. An echo of a new fear resonated in the auditorium, it overpowered the cheers and mass celebrations of the crowds, and it trumped the sense of victory that finishing the race should have brought.

The same phrase reverberated not just within my head, it seemed to shake the very foundations of the auditorium.

Continue reading “My Anthem. My Heartcry. My Battlecry.”

The best way to get along with people is to not expect them to be like you. – Joyce Meyers

How I wish I would have known this a lot sooner. I inadvertently expect the same kindness, care and love that I give out, and therefore am let down constantly. I have been trying to fix the way that I get upset/let down by people every once in a while and have been unable to find out why. I was on the verge of just changing who I was, but as I started to I became bitter… I became angry and hurt. A pressure built up within that was hard for me to contain… until I broke and could not take it anymore. I cannot help but be who I am. I guess I just need to expect less.

Lover of My Soul

Oh Lord. Oh Lover of my soul,

How I long to know You. This fire I wish never fades. Peace rests upon me. Sweet and indulgent peace. I am moving in the right direction, I feel better. But my emotions will and can deceive me. I know I must not dwell n them for long, but why would You gift me-gift us-with such malevolent senses, why would we have feelings if not for use?  There must be purpose in them, it is part of Your likeness that I feel. It is what makes me a masterpiece as Your word declares.

I will learn not to depend on them but do not allow peace to forsake me. I acknowledge that pain and suffering exists; were it not for the pain and suffering You took upon Yourself I would not know You. But I request Oh Lord, as Your son, as Your beloved, that this all consuming fire for Your love and will not leave me. Though it may flicker and wane do not let it burn out once more. I have never been so sure of my love for knowledge of You. My heart jumped and the fire within me was ablaze studying of Your mysteries.

Though season pass, and though it rains on the just and the unjust alike, remember me. I will write and sing of You, for it is a secret I realized Your People [The Israelites] understood. I will remember  You all of my days. Feed the fire within me, let me not forsake the flame. As Jeremiah realized, I cannot keep my mouth shut either. I must speak of Your greatness.

But if I say, “I will not mention his word
or speak anymore in his name,”
his word is in my heart like a fire,
a fire shut up in my bones.
I am weary of holding it in;
indeed, I cannot. (Jeremiah 20:9 NIV)

Grant Your peace to those in need. Use me as You see fit. Let my heart break Lord for what breaks Yours. Let my heart grieve for what grieves Yours.  Let not a day go by that I do not desire what pleases You. Break me so that You can make me anew.

I love You!